well,im feeling quite down lately.
but trying to put a strong front.im good in pretending you see.
Life for me is not getting any better.
This raya will not be the same anymore.
The fasting month too.
the house seems quieter than before.
i see no ray of light anymore.
in these coming month,
i have to prepare myself,
for both good & bad.
and in times like this,
i dont deny i need companies.
i need shoulder.
i need hugs.
but the problem w me is,
i wont ask.because i dont want people
to knw wats my problem,i dun want them to knw that
im actually not who i seems to be.
but there is this one person,i should say,i share my sorrows with.
almost all BUT not everything.
and at times,
i forget even people have their own problems.
and maybe im too depended.
thats my problem too,i depend on people too much.
because i have no one to depend on.
and i harbour too much hopes too.
that is also one of my flaws.
i wished for a beautiful day,where sun shines so bright and
everything seems so peaceful and nice..
but maybe all i can get
is a bright day with heavy downpour.
here comes my low self-esteem side now.
my eyes are stinging due to heavy downpour.
i guess sleep is the best remedy for me.
goodbye.
