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Baby you showed me what living is for
i don't want to hide anymore
i LOVE YOU babylove.
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Friday, August 20, 2010
I Love You and Its Getting Worse.
well,im feeling quite down lately.
but trying to put a strong front.im good in pretending you see.
Life for me is not getting any better.
This raya will not be the same anymore.
The fasting month too.
the house seems quieter than before.
i see no ray of light anymore.
in these coming month,
i have to prepare myself,
for both good & bad.
and in times like this,
i dont deny i need companies.
i need shoulder.
i need hugs.
but the problem w me is,
i wont ask.because i dont want people
to knw wats my problem,i dun want them to knw that
im actually not who i seems to be.
but there is this one person,i should say,i share my sorrows with.
almost all BUT not everything.
and at times,
i forget even people have their own problems.
and maybe im too depended.
thats my problem too,i depend on people too much.
because i have no one to depend on.
and i harbour too much hopes too.
that is also one of my flaws.
i wished for a beautiful day,where sun shines so bright and
everything seems so peaceful and nice..
but maybe all i can get
is a bright day with heavy downpour.
here comes my low self-esteem side now.
my eyes are stinging due to heavy downpour.
i guess sleep is the best remedy for me.
goodbye.
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i knw this blog seems so dead now.
and probably most of my readers think
it doesnt exist anymore.
well its ok,shall start all over again.
so,my 13 monthsary has past,so does my berfday.
Thanks to all many well-wishers in fb and also
who texted my hp. Sorry i didnt rply cos ppd low.hehe(:
thanks baby for the mickey and
treating me to the delicious foods..
thank you too for bringing me to clarke quay
and watch the beautiful night.
and abah..Thanks for the kenneth cole
watch(:
for my adeks n mak,its ok.(:
i dun mind pending :P
Well,working in USS is so great. Yeah,worth it too :D
Still no replies frm hotel,making me worried.
chiaos.
P.S: baby & i have our own kittens(:
the name is babycat&puma(:
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Saturday, July 3, 2010
happy anniversary my dearest baby
 happy anniversary to me.
Yeah,anniversary..i cant believe it myself
i've been this far,yet it feels as if we jus got attached yesterday.
i can still remember vividly,
all memories of us being together,
from friends,to lovers.
how i used to tease him,love to hold on to his
floorball stick,the moment i can sense his feelings from me,
those couple games(we were known as the biscuit couple fyi)
im glad i was able to help eu change eurself into a better person.
i didnt change eu,eu changed eurself,i only helped.
for the first time,i experienced the true meaning of love.
the figts,the sweets,the sacrifices,
basically we share our life together.
and im glad i found eu,my wishes upon the stars,
Came True (:
 to my dearest baby,
im thankful that i met eu. it is all fate.
i mean i didnt expect to be in hospitality.
eu were encourage by nani to join hospitality.
and from nothing--frens--myheart
i enjoy every single time spent w eu.
every fights.every sweet moments.it jus the perfect recipe
for a relationship.
eur smile realy brightens up my day.
eu nver failed to be there for me, sacrifice some
of eur important things, whenever
im in a bad shape/worst situation.
i still remebered when eu literally left school
juslike that
with eur bag still in class,
to send me home as my was major swollen
from lens.
aww(:
there is still others,i have nver forgotten them.
thanks for making history in my life,
for being the longest bf ever
& THE BESTEST BF EVER(:
i hope that eu can be my last,i wanna grow old w eu.
and i hope i can be eur last too.
god-willing.
so looking forward to our celebration nxt week(:
iloveyoubaby.
i do.
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Sunday, June 20, 2010
hi people.
well,its been quite a week for me.
on mon,had sc april intake interview. was okay.
can see some potential exco members.
after that,went to watch the karate kid w baby.
was an awesome and inspirational movie(:
worth it to watch.(:
the next day, stayed home..
cooked for my siblings too. its been quite a long time
since i cooked..because im very occupied
with school lately.
on wednesday,
baby and i had lunch together and
watch movie.(:
we watched the backup plan.
was fun. i love it when we spent time together.
on friday,
went to sentosa for sc bonding with april and jan intk
juniors.
was fun.and nice food too(:
had appreciation celebration too for mr lim.
after that, had dinner with suffy,mirah,bas,ayee,mike,
sue,farah,hisham n saiful.
was fun(: imissthem((:
on sat and today,
is such a boring day. did nothing.
*this happened last week.
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Friday, June 11, 2010
my 11 monthsary
 hie there.
it was my 11 monthsary on the
fourth of june 2010.
i met him at clementi sports hall first since he had a match.
12-3.well,he won.he scored too(:
we celebrate it like we always did.
watch movies and eat eat eat.(:
we went to marina to catch the
SHREK THE FINAL CHAPTER 3D.
I gotta say it actually a nice movie but
the 3D is not really wat we expected.
we thgt its gonna be a REAL EXPRIENCE.
with its effects.but its was average.
 anyways, after that we went to have our dinner at
Swensen's ((:
yumyumyum(:we took alot of pics(:
 after dinner, we lepak at fountain of wealth while
eating our fav snack: auntie anne's caramel almond pretzel.
the very place where baby made a wish.
when we were jus friends(:
awww!
ok,enough!
so,its been a nightmare day for me.
i cant explain here cos its too personal.
i hope things can be better.
i dun wan any body interfere in our problems.
making it worst.
and theres no need for anyone to
try and break us apart.
and
i love you.
 dear baby,
thank you very much
because eu have been there for me
thru thick and thin
all the way,by my side.
im sorry if my attitude sucks reently
bcos my life is getting worst and
out of hand.but i thank god,
and im glad eu didnt give up on me,
eu didnt ignore me,
instead eu help me.
eu also accompanied me that sumtimes,
i could forget al my miseries.
i guess thats why everyone needs a partner,
bcos in these hard times,
we are able to depend on them.and we are
able to see
if they help us thru or
not at all.
i love you baby.
i do.
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Sunday, May 30, 2010
  Life is getting tougher.
i thght it was going to end on that very day
when things were settled.
when its been decided that issues will be forgotten.
when i saw rays of affection came through.
little did i knw,it was just for a moment.
just like the sun.
it wont be too long before it sets.
mistakes were done.
someone's heart is shattered.
trust has vanished completely.
revengeful eyes appear.
Love has Gone.
Far Far away.
i have the feeling that
the worst storm
i am afraid of
might come anytime this year.
 i miss baby.really much.
we didnt really spent alot of time this week.
his time is so occupied now
and sometimes,there's no room for me.
11 monthsary is coming.
i dun think so he is free to go out
and probably watch movies,eat together.
and some things have change.
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Thursday, May 27, 2010
i might be smiling on the outside...but..
well,its been a negative week for me.
sometimes i feel that no one really understand me.
sometimes i am willing to do anything for anyone,
but they wun really do anythng for me in the end.
i used to believe
DO WHAT EU WANT OTHERS TO DO TO YOU.
but i dont know if that sentence is really true.
basically,
i was down since on mon night.
something happened and i remembered all the
heart-pain days i went thru.and it still hav not change yet.
the next day,had to go west campuses for proj.
tried my best to enjoy the day.trying hard to forget
all my worries.but it ended worser.
thats the day where i really felt
sad.damn sad.
sometimes i feel like
i jus wanna get away from everything.
but i cant.
i have to face it.
i still have to put up a strong front,
jus so they wun know how im feeling inside.
i have to smile,so that they think im okay.
i have to say Im Okay,so that they wun know
im actually not.
im afraid to confide in people abt matters i
might be sad with.
too afraid. i guess the best way might be
keeping it to myself and confide w the person
within me.thats the best solution i have
for now.
Sometimes
all a person needs
is a hand to hold
and
a heart
to understand.
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sweetest addiction
Hola dearies.
shai / shy is my name.170891 is my berfday.sweetest 18 this year.been through alot in this life.
yet,
i always believe in expecting the unexpected and do what eu want others to do to eu(:
040709 is my lovestory.romanticly moving to ONE year soon.
im deeply,dangerously,crazily in love withthis thief,who stole my heart:
mohamad rashid jalaluddin.
i believe in our lovestory,and let us have a happy ending,
fighting all bad witches together,and kiss me when i eat e poison-ed apple,
cos eur my medicine.
We might kiss when we are alone, when nobody's watching. We might take it home, we might make out when nobody's there.
It's not that we're scared. It's just that it's delicate.
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